I think Im completely in love with someone I havent evan kissed and not sure he feels the same?

Ok, so I know Im in love with this guy I cant get him outta my head every song has meaning. I totally love everything I think hes sooo beautiful and a good man as well. I have never kissed him but I think he just toys with my emotions. Ok so he works at this at this bar I always go to so hes always sober and Im always pissed making a dick of myself having fun. Anyway a couple of months ago on the night i realised I was in love with him he cornered me with a bearhug told me I was so beautiful and he would treat me so nice and better than any man ever could he would look after me blah blah. Holy **** I was gone...and then he was gone dont know where so I had to leave with one a my guy mates. Anyway he always hugs me when he sees me, I dont even have his numba but his sister was txting me the other week seeing what i was doing who i was with and then she told me it was him really. im average looking but I gotta big fun personality have had a lot of guys hitting on me lately some in front of him all saying Im hot blah blah blah the coolest chick whatever . I never ever hook up I really only want this guy... it sux. He is hot and heaps of chicks hit on him but my friends told me hes not a player hes a one woman man and his sister said one night he would stick wit me and never leave .... but now I think he may actually be seeing someone else and I feel jealous and I havent even kissed this guy. I dont know for sure, I feel so sad... Is he just playing games with me is he really a player???? I cant risk any rejection but how I am I gonna know for sure. How can I get him before its too late or how can I stop thinking about him and just be cool. Does he even like me, I dont know Im 32 been in love twice before been hurt both times and in lust a lot done my own share of heartbreaking. What evan makes us fall in love... does anyone have any advice for me that doesnt involve giving up drinking