I need someone to help me! Please someone respond to me!?

I filed for sole custody of my baby, ive always been the primary caregiver, never received any help from ex, when i was preggo he pointed a gun and said he would blow my brains and his brains i ran and left the house went to a friends house, baby was born premature, i never reported him to the police i was scared, after baby was born i allowed hin to visit her in my home with my mother there, he would send me text and emails saying he wanted to blow his brains, also that he didnt point the gun at me he was going to kill himself, also saying he was suicidal, so thats why i requested sole custody and him supervised visit, yesterday had the hearing judge accepted all my evidence, but yet because FL is a 50/50 stated he gave him shared custody every other weekend, baby suffers from apnea is on a monitor everytime she sleeps judge didnt request dad to take cpr told him if she stops breathing call 911 ! She doesnt even know him shes never been alone with him, he doesnt have a car seat or a toddler bed NOTHING , no job, stays with his parents , i didnt agree to the court order, and my attorney is doing an appeal so we can go to trial with a judge .. I am so scared need some advice , i am scared he will hurt my baby,what if he kills her and than kills himself? There has to be someone who can help this desperate mother, i want the best for my baby! What can i do?!